I miss you guys!!!!!

For those who do not know of Becky and I's history I will give you a quick breifing in a nut shell at the end of this.

Dylan it has been 2 years 1 week and 4 days since you have gone to the baby gym up there in the big sky. You have tought us how to love one another and be there for each other when we need each other in life. I wish you were here because we have always dreamed about you. You would be well into walking and talking our ears off, getting into trouble and giving us our run for our money. I think by now I would have taking you down to my fire house at least 1000 times by now. We miss you more then anything, I wish we coulda had an option in order to keep you alive but unfourtionitly we did not and for that is the reason you are now looking down on us.
I wish I could have felt the bond that your mommy had with you. There is not a day that I dont think about you and miss you. I wish I did not have to visit you and your brother at the cemetary because it kills me and takes more of a peice of my soul and heart by you not being here. There is only 3 things that I ask of you that are the most importent things to me and they are Look after us down here Look after your brother and Look after and protect your baby sister Lilly Rylan.

I love you Dylan with all my heart and will see you in due time.

Riley

What can I say about you, the last time I saw you was from an ultra sound in witch you waved to us. At that momment it made me happy and we thought that you were going to be the one that will help complete our family. But it was that sad day when you were born too early in life, to early of an age to come into this world. Again it felt like our hearts were ripped right out from our chests.

It has been nearly 1 1/2 years since you have passed and joined your brother up in the big gym in the sky and for that we miss you just as much. I hope you are getting along with your brother and watching over us. I miss you every day that goes by in which you are not here to wake us up in the mourning. Everyday that goes by in which you are not walking around raising hell and getting into stuff. Everyday I miss you more. As I told your brother the three things I want you to do the same.

I love you with all my heart Riley James and will see you in due time.

If this sounds like I am crazy for writing this I am not because wether you belive it or not the people that are not around are looking down on you. When you exprience a lose like this our from another loved one you will do anything to tell them you love them and think about them more and more everyday.

With that here is our quick update on the days that had changed our lives forever.

When Becky and I moved home from Florida to move back to PA we were pregnat with our first baby Dylan Michael and then what seemed to be the worst day in history of our lives on May 8th 2006 at 17 weeks we had lost our boy. After Dylan we waited a little while about 5 months and we had gotten pregnate again with our baby Riley James, we had talk to our doctor and he sugested on Becky having a procedure done that will help keep the baby in there. We went along with it and got the procedure with only held for 9 days and with that result we had lost Riley on December 26th at 16 weeks.

With all that said we are moving along and have come along way with what had happened in the past and are now the most pregnate we have ever been at 21 weeks and counting down to October 2, 2008.